You’ve described what I went through as a child! I guess it is a lot different for a girl though. I remember being pressured into having a boyfriend as all my friends had one. They talked about things that I really didn’t want to talk about and hoped I never experienced. I was repulsed too. I never said anything for fear of being teased. I would sit with a group I 10 friends or more and feel like I was completely alone. I still feel that way now sadly.