I am sorry about your breakup. I have only had one relationship and it ended badly. Thatbwas 9myears ago. I have been in and out of mental health since and been on several types of meds. I stayed in touch with my ex as I became codependant. He has now cut of all contact and sent me crashing again. I keep analysing why he is being so nasty. I keep getting flash backs and can visualise things that have happened so vividly. I keep asking myself, why what happened. I remember even the smallest of things. Its like torture. Tried to overdose the other day.