- Things I am looking for in a person are:
Adam!! I made this specifically for you…This is my only way of reaching you, so just read on!! You’re probably really confused but curious haha
Okay, I honestly realized I should’ve just given you your space instead of asking you to delete your kik, because now I can’t keep in touch with you 🙁 🙁 I’ll never know what becomes of you, and your cool ambitions. It’s my fault we lost connection so I’m trying to own up my mistakes.
I’ve now accepted you’re a busy man with limited time and a lot of stress. I never accepted this two weeks ago. I was strangely entitled to your time & attention and I’m honestly ashamed. You were right, I was creating drama. I only realize it now because I started a new job and I’m stressed out, and I don’t have the mental energy or time to text My friends back quickly…I respect you a lot knowing you still found time for my ass. So with my new clarity and hindsight…, I feel I owe you a major apology. And I’m willing to admit I was wrong in order to salvage our friendship
you were the only guy I was texting, naturally I got superrr attached to you. Which was deff unhealthy. So I had no right to “call you out” or demand you reply back. Uffff, I’m ashamed of that shit, looking back. Plus I was unemployed & bored, so you were like my hobby. Plus being in quarantine wasn’t helping .
Anyway, I’ll be in Munich in October to see my cousin, And he mentioned a swiss lake , I can’t remember the name , but it started with an L. I’m pretty sure you told me about that same lake! I wanna be able to send you cool pics of my travels too 😀
Like the way you’d send me cool scenery pics
I don’t want a relationship and I fully accept your busy schedule. so there won’t be any drama. I just don’t wanna lose connection for eternity. Even if we talk once a week, it’s still better than never again. I don’t wanna lose you forever, not ever knowing how life’s treating you , not knowing if you’re happy, safe, alive. Ufff
you were a decent man and I ruined a decent friendship with you. I don’t wanna talk everyday and don’t expect to. you’re busy and I’m not unemployed with free time anymore. I’m okay with that. You’re my fellow Balkan ace, I just honestly want to have a way of keeping in touch with you. Would be dope to share our cool stories & life experiences. Would also be dope to eventually meet at some point to drink cappuccino haha and talk about cool shit
I think your mom would find me sweet that I’m doing this!! Haha I couldn’t find you here at first? I thought you were in Zurich -__-
However it’s not what I want, it’s what you want, and if you reallllly don’t wanna stay in touch, Still just text me and let me know, so I know you’ve Actually read this. Then just block my number afterwards . I’ll just have to respect your wish and let you be. I hope you wanna still be cool friends tho? U accept my apology? Idk, let me know.
Here’s my WhatsApp number:
+1 (516) 336‑7782
when we briefly spoke on WhatsApp a while back , I deleted My account and I don’t have your number Anymore. I would just text you, instead of doing this page. But this is the only way I can reach you to apologize. If it wasn’t for my overreacting, we’d still be buddies. So I just have to let you know, I really fuckedd up. You weren’t some fuckboy , you were actually a very good man.
. I feel a lot of guilt for how I lashed out at you, so it’s why I had to find you and tell you these things.
- About me
Update: I wrote the aforementioned, and i cringe at how cringy it is. Haha I wanna delete it but fuck it, I’ll just leave it, I can be dead & gone next week, and you would’ve never known about what I thought of you .
I’ll put my ego aside to write this – So let’s go:
It probably makes me look like an idiot or a weird loser, that I care so much. I’m not a retard, haha, I know I shouldn’t care about you, we’ve never met, we only spoke likeeee 7 weeks, you’re a stranger, I’m a stranger. But I honestly give a fuck what happens to you.
I remember when we first started talking wayyyyy back in feb, you told me you had just gotten outta a depression last year I think? and that made me upset when you told me. It really made me sad Just knowing this mystery man who reached out to me (you) had suffered so much emotional pain 🙁 I instantly felt a need to cheer you up. I’ve suffered a lot in my life, so I instantly felt your pain . And it’s why I wanted to send you money , I didn’t even know you, but I wanted to make you smile, to make sure you’ll at least be happy for a little bit. A hug would’ve been better, but our distance prevented that, so I knew money was the way to go!! Haha XD
then I started encouraging you to turn off your phone after 9pm to do other meaningful things haha. A rule I somewhat kinda follow…maybe. XD
I was just trying to help this mystery man out
I know I’m strange to care so much but goddamn it, it’s just how I am. XD I’m soft & sentimental . so I’d obviously care about my fellow mystery Balkan ace who opened up to me about depression or other deep shit. I was super sad the month before we started talking (January) so my emotional pain was fresh and tangible, so I instantly felt empathy for youuuu. I mean, how could I not care? We had so much commonalities, I felt like me and you were sorta alike in a lot of ways. I can’t abandon you, even tho we said goodbye like almost three weeks ago. I realized that was a terrible mistake :/
We also bonded over our hatred of cloudy days and how brutally miserable they make us. Our loveee of sunny days and happy they make us. How we don’t hit da clubzzzz. haha, I swear, Gospodin. Raptor & Mademoiselle Sunshine had a lot of shit in common, now you can see why I can’t abandon you- It’s rare in life you meet people who are kinda similar to you But we are also different in a lot of ways too, haha. I don’t have to explain this one XD
I swear, you’ll think I’m a creep for writing so much about a man I know so little about, but I guess I got a soft heart.
My Swiss/German cousins study upward of 8hrs a day . They have exams in August. I wonder if this was you, Were you studying this much, :O I had no idea
Well I hope you accept my apology!!! I know you’re busy so I’ll give you your space and hopefully you give me a second chance XD ….And If You reject my apology/friendship, you can text me and let me know, so I can just know you read this. Then U can block me Haha.
LIfe is hard and life sucks sometimes, You don’t have to suffer alone, should you ever find yourself depressed 🙂 I just want my life to mean something, I don’t know how else to have a positive influence on people other than being sweet and caring and cheering people up. Sounds so insignificant but it’s all I can offer the world. So if you are depressed just text me, I’ll try to make you happy haha
You’re a rational man -unlike me, you don’t wear your heart on your sleeves-, and you’re full of formal higher education , (unlike me) so you’ll deff think I’m acting over the top for doing this page, or being way too dramatic, and I shouldn’t care so much, buttttt, you gotta give me credit for showing so much heart & soul to a stranger . I mean, it’s why I wanna stay in touch with you, to always Check up on you or to Make sure you’re doing okay. I couldn’t just abandon you. So I’m risking my ego and self-dignity to write this, haha. I’m deffff not perfect but my heart is good . Idk, this is embarrassing, so I’m not going to keep writing, just know I hope you and your mom are safe and healthy and are happy XD (Ps. You should ask your mom whether or not you should gimme a second chance haha) You told me she’s naive , goshhh, I feel like I’m also a naive woman haha. Well hope to hear from ya, good luck with exams